I'm always on the lookout for things that move me, everywhere I go. Top3 and Top4 know by now not to complain when I park the car on the side of the road, shout: "Just a sec!" and spurt away, camera at hand.

The other day, I spotted a lovely golden brown pheasant, scurrying about on the thick layers of ploughed clay. I had a difficult time hunting it down for a snapshot (from a distance, mind you). Only when I turned and walked back to the car, I saw it again, trying to hide amidst the fragmented soil.

The pheasant hiding in plain sight, probably out of fear, mixed with something I put on Twitter (I tend to randomly tweet thoughts whilst working in my office): "The meek shall inherit the world, or what's left of it."

Fear is an understandable and even necessary trait in defenceless animals. It should, however, not apply to people. We should not be forced to play silly games of Hide and Seek.

For the longest time, I've lived in fear. Not fear to be crushed, but fear that my inner world is too big and too complex to share in a meaningful way. (I tend to get lost in it myself, so what will happen if I allow visitors?)

But I am not a pheasant, and I refuse to side with the meek. The world desperately needs our inner worlds.

So, I've been working very hard at developing an installation for a special venue. (As I am a self-taught artist without any claim to fame, there's a slim chance my work will be selected, but I've submitted my proposal anyway.) In between translations I've been busy reading, writing (some poetry, bits and fragments for the novel) and sorting through the images in my head.

Slowly, I am discerning central themes in my life, and figuring out how to use these for the Greater Good. (Which is a posh way of saying I want my work to make a difference on a bigger scale.)

Top1 is also moving towards new territory, trying to find out how to "market" his unique skills. It's a big world - there must be room for a couple of creative independent spirits. And we're in it to share, not to boost our ego or to make big bucks. There must be a way. There simply must.

PS - As I am typing this, the other Tops are rolling on the floor and peeing their pants over "The Party", starring Peter Sellers. Our sense of humour is very much intact, thankyouverymuch!

PPS - I love each and every one of you for caring. Please do not worry about our income. We're careful with money, we always have been. Top1 still has some health issues, but is far from disabled. We're just searching for ways to make the most of our combined skills and knowledge and depth. (Tips are always welcome, of course.)